A lot of things are changing right now, and hopefully for the better. Old roommate moved out, and new roommate moved in. Still a few loose ends to sort out over the next several days, but I am much more compatible with the new roommate overall, so feeling good about that. I have a small […]
Finding the Way Back to Me
There’s something I’ve been thinking a lot about the past few weeks. I posted a lot while I was still in my old job about how difficult and stressful and demoralizing it was working in a call center. I spent so long trying to get out of there that I didn’t think about how long […]
The First Day of the Rest of my Life
Anyone who’s been following this blog knows how miserable I’ve been working in a call center. Friday was my last day, and today I started my new job in a feminist bookstore I can walk to from my house. I feel like a weight’s been lifted off my shoulders. I can feel the tension melting […]
Lessons on Moving
I’ve been thinking about writing this post since I moved halfway across the country to graduate school 3 1/2 years ago. I recently made a trip to visit my sister for Christmas and decided to pick up a few things I’ve been missing that I stored with a friend. Your mileage may vary, of course, […]
The Power of Words
I’m usually not a huge fan of labels. I prefer to self-identify in ambiguous terms. Life is complicated and if I learned anything in graduate school it’s that dichotomies are always false, if easier for the human brain to comprehend sometimes. That said, sometimes naming something can be really useful. I’ve always known I can […]
Poly Roadblocks
Slowly but surely I’m getting better at this poly thing. I can literally feel it. Feel it in the way the jealousy bites at me, but then some part of me rejects it, and it turns into a self-analyzing moment with the potential for personal growth. I don’t want to be jealous. That doesn’t change […]
a new chapter
I think all humans both require and on some level fear change, or are at least resistant to it. No matter how much I yearn for change, the closer it comes, the more anxious I become. I also tend to get nostalgic for the good parts of my life – probably a coping mechanism in […]
Thoughts in the Bath
Tonight the sunset was beautiful here. And I felt grateful to see it. It is a small blessing in my life that it is no longer pitch black when I get off work… nothing is worse than feeling it’s the middle of the night before you’ve even had dinner. Whenever I most seriously entertain the […]
What are the odds?
I’m a pretty introspective person. That’s why I have a blog, for instance. I know that creating narratives is an important facet of human experience, and that how we make sense of our experiences and lives matters. I was re-reading this book I picked up over the summer, Hardcore Zen. And I was thinking that maybe […]
Change is Inevitable
Something I’ve been musing over lately is how different my life is now than what it was while I was in graduate school. I hardly see any of the friends I made during my graduate studies and fieldwork due to the time constraints of my current job and how disconnected I am now from the […]