The stage is filled with staircases. Someone walks up and down, up and down, and down and down and down…. some of the stairs go below the stage itself, and some high above the proscenium. Someone walks in circles up and down, down and up, trying to find a place to rest.
Having Your Sh*t Together
I’ve been thinking a lot the past few days about maturity and responsibility. I often find people surprised by my age, thinking I am older than I am because I seem to reliably have my shit together. And no one keeps it together 100% of the time, but I really do try. And then I […]
To Medicate or Not to Medicate?
That is the question. When I went for the follow-up for my head, the doctor basically offered to give me brain meds if I wanted them and my therapist agreed I needed them. I’ve been vacillating, and I feel like I’m doing a lot better than I was, so I haven’t brought it up with […]
Play a Day: Don’t Believe Everything You Hear
A woman tries to stay positive while the personification of her depression follows her around, telling her how horrible everything is. Example: Woman: This is only temporary. Depression: Who knows how long it will last? Woman: I may have lost some income, but I will be back on track soon. Depression: You never have […]
Invisible Illness
So far, July has been a pretty low point for me. The Tuesday before the 4th of July, I fell backwards down the stairs of a friend’s hot tub. It had rained earlier, and wet stairs plus wet food equaled me on the ground before I knew it. If you look closely, you can still […]
Play a Day: Perspective
The following dialogue is repeated twice. The first time the interaction is filled with joy, mutual interest, connection, and good intentions. The second time, emotions get in the way – jealousy, irritation, frustration, and everything is taken personally. 1: Hey 2: Hey 1: What’s up? 2: Have you seen my green mug? 1: The one […]
Less is More
Earlier this week, I hit a bit of a low point in a depression-anxiety spiral. I hadn’t been sleeping well, and having been laid up with my period, was feeling guilty and useless for not getting “enough” done, among other things. Reaching out always helps because I have a tendency to go inwards with those […]
Anxiety, Irritability, and History
Mental health issues are weird sometimes. We can only identify what we have names for, and it took someone else pointing it out to me for me to even realize that I have anxiety, and that anxiety was what was a big part of what was underneath all those feelings and experiences I lumped under the […]
Play a Day: Long Summer’s Nap
A woman lies in bed, sleeping. Life moves on around her.
Play a Day: A New Leaf
A woman reaches into the back of her closet, and dusting off her yoga mat, slings it over her shoulder and heads out the door.