I’ve watched this video before, where the narrator compares his depression to a black dog who follows him around. Mine feels more like an estranged relative who decides to drop by for a visit even when they know they’re unwelcome. I thought I was just stressed and overworked. But yesterday I had a complete meltdown when I […]
Another Crossroads
As a part of my freelance writing gig, I sometimes like to do performance reviews. I went to see a show tonight, but I wish I would have done something else instead. It was 2 one-act plays based on short stories from Chekhov. I was most interested in the second half, an adaptation of “The […]
What to Do When You Feel Too Much
I’ve been an emotional person for as long as I can remember. I’m more easily drawn to tears than others. When I feel a strong emotion, whether it’s anger, sadness, frustration, jealousy, disappointment, or even happiness, it all seems to flood out my eyes. I learned early growing up that many view tears as a […]
Working Too Hard
I realized yesterday that watching a movie after work was the only real time I’ve had to myself in over a week. Been picking up extra odd jobs and such to make up for one boss being out of town 2 weeks this month and other job being slow. Between that and trying to keep […]
Going With the Flow
Something I’ve been thinking about for a few days now. Just got back from Burning Flipside, a much-needed artistic vacation. My lover and I had printed out the list of events from the website before leaving, and while we consulted it several times to see what interesting things might be going on, we mostly just wandered […]
Finding the Way Back to Me
There’s something I’ve been thinking a lot about the past few weeks. I posted a lot while I was still in my old job about how difficult and stressful and demoralizing it was working in a call center. I spent so long trying to get out of there that I didn’t think about how long […]
Epiphany
Sometimes things which *should* be obvious are not. We’re so occupied elsewhere that we miss what’s in front of our face. That happened to me the other day. I was catching a bus downtown for SXSW, and it dawned on me. I live in Austin. I live in AUSTIN. I LIVE in Austin. For as […]
Life and Death
I know I haven’t written for a while. But a lot of things have converged lately that I want to try to make sense of. Jose Esteban Munoz died earlier this week. I drew heavily from his book Cruising Utopia for my thesis. While academic research is often framed as a conversation, I always entertained […]
Possibilities
Just had a lovely evening of conversation with a friend. She’s in Internet Marketing and has recently started operating her business based on gifts and gratitude; giving things away to those who need them rather than setting a fixed price for services, and letting folks contribute as they will. Even though we’re coming at all […]