I saw this Buzzfeed article earlier in the week and was intrigued. I’d not heard of bullet journals before, but it seemed like something I would be into. Just go read that article and come back because I don’t feel like explaining what a bullet journal is. I already have a passion planner, so the […]
Self-Regulation as Privilege
I don’t know if this is the next step, but right now I’m feeling a lot of anger. Especially towards my ex, but also just in general feeling angry about any situation where I was expected to be able to regulate my emotions in a neurotypical way. Because I’ve been living in this stark contrast […]
Everyone has baggage.
Seriously. They do. This is going to be a post about “things I wish someone had told me a decade ago.” (Or maybe they did and I just wasn’t ready to hear it yet. Always possible.) One of the results of growing up in a dysfunctional dynamic is that it is possible to become used […]
What’s a Crisis?
Possibly one of the most frustrating things about mental illness is never being able to trust your perceptions and reactions to stimulus. Never knowing if a reaction is due to your mental illness or an appropriate response to stress. There will always be this little voice asking whether or not someone “normal” would be reacting […]
Perfectionism and Personal Growth
I am a recovering perfectionist. I say that because I believe perfectionism to be a life-long condition. Much like a recovering alcoholic cannot allow themselves to have a single drink, if I allow myself to feed perfectionistic thoughts or tendencies, they will grow back to their previous strength. It requires mindfulness and strict boundary-setting to […]
Days Like This
A friend once asked me why I reference my day “off” in quotation marks. It’s because working several part-time jobs, it’s hard to really take a day off. It’s true that working from home means it’s hard to stop working. My days “off” are days I don’t need to leave the house and go somewhere […]
Another F*cking Opportunity For Growth
Just coming out of my first depression spiral since I started taking supplements to manage my hormones and by extension my mood. Not sure of the cause. Never exactly sure of the cause. Could be stress. Or that maca root was more helpful than I realized in stabilizing my mood and I need to make […]
Play a Day: Chicken and Egg
What appears at first glance to be a party. Upon closer observation, among those in attendance are actually depression, anxiety, insomnia, PTSD, menstrual difficulties, and, of course, the owner of the house. Since the audience has arrived in medias res, we don’t know which guest arrived first. Think of it like a murder mystery dinner […]
Wedding Bells in Austin, Oct 23
On October 23 at 8pm, Stephanie Vela Anderson is marrying her dildo, “Glen Potter.” The wedding ceremony, which will take place at Mister Tramps in Austin, is part performance art and part fundraiser for Anderson’s upcoming documentary about mental illness, entitled “Heartlight.” A video of the happy couple can be found here. In an interview, […]
Yoga and Strength
I’ve recently gotten back into yoga. And it’s strange. Because I know intellectually that I’m not in as good of physical shape as I might like to be. I know that I’m objectively “fat.” But even when I’m doing a modification for a pose or several, even when I have to go into child’s pose instead […]