Walking Past Midnight It’s 12:30amAndAfter a long daySittingAnd sittingIn front of my laptopI need toMoveMyBodyBefore I can sleep. So I do the unthinkableFor a white assigned female bodyGrab my walletPut on my sandalsAnd go for a walk. It might seem like a small thingIt is in a wayButIn another wayNot.Every message I received growing upWould […]
Feeding Myself Through the Pandemic
Eating during the pandemic has been a continual struggle. Since I live alone, before the pandemic I would normally do meal prep once a week, cooking 2 meals with 6-7 servings a piece that can be lunch and dinner, and then I can make eggs or have something easy on-hand for breakfast. This stopped working […]
Relationship Web
Our understanding of gender, sexuality, and relationships is always evolving. A friend recently shared a Facebook memory featuring the Attraction Layer Cake (https://cake.avris.it/) and we remarked that it is now dated, but neither of us knew of anything that’s been created since. So I made my own graphic, differentiating between different types of attraction to […]
There is no one-size-fits-all approach to Allyship
I’ve noticed an increase in people claiming that others are engaged in “performative” allyship. Aside from my frustration about the misunderstanding of what performative means, those claiming to see evidence of performativity, even if I take their definition at face value, apply the term to any/all things an ally could possibly do. I see so […]
What does it really mean to talk about “performative” activism?
As a Performance Studies scholar, nothing gets under my skin faster than people talking about “performative activism” on social media. Take for example, this article from the satirical feminist website, Reductress. In this context, individuals use the term “performative” to mean that something is fake, inauthentic, or only for show. That anyone posting about social […]
Catch and Release
I go for a walk in a neighborhood near mine Better than pacing the parking lot of my apartment complex I turn left where it says “No Outlet” Before finishing the last leg to get back to my car. From behind a van lunges a dog, barking. Collar, no leash. I freeze. I turn to […]
Coping with Traumatic Stress: Introduction to Your Nervous System Response
We are currently experiencing a collective trauma. The autonomic nervous system in our bodies has evolved and adapted over time to assess for threats and to respond in a way that will help to keep us safe. Most people are likely familiar with the fight or flight response to stress and trauma. This response developed […]
Dress Rehearsal for the Pandemic
My sewing machine whirs away, making a happy buzzing sound. I don’t think it’s seen this much action…ever. I’m reminded of my costuming days, surrounded by piles of fabric, and learning through trial and error. At least this is nowhere near as complicated as making a stay by hand. The last time I was up […]
On Kindness
This is the only thing I will say, re: Ellen. I *do* think that we should be kind, but what kindness actually means can be lost in nuance. I think that a lot of people conflate kindness with being “nice.” Acting nice is a behavior, being kind is a part of a person’s moral and […]
What to expect from this site
I can only ever speak from my experience. If it has not been clear until now, the thoughts and opinions you find here are my own, and not meant to define anyone else’s experience, or to be seen as universal. I am the expert on my own experience, no one else’s. As I have been […]