Play a Day: Working Hard
People sit on opposite sides of a table, trying to impress each other.
Tag: life
Play a Day: One Step Forward
The Woman originally from Day 11 has turned the fishbowl upside down and dumped the slips of paper into a pile on a desk. She works feverishly, occasionally reaching over to the side without looking to grab another slip. Eventually,… Read morePlay a Day: One Step Forward
Play a Day: Time Flies
Someone in a clock costume with wings is rigged to fly around the stage while people go about their day, and do not notice.
play a Day: Passing You By
A woman center stage tapping a pen on a notebook, thinking. Someone rides by on a bicycle. A couple pass by holding hands. A kid chases after an errant soccer ball. A clock on a nearby church tolls the… Read moreplay a Day: Passing You By
Play a Day: Back to the Grind
The backpack from Day 23 sits on the ground. A butler picks it up and hands it to the woman, who is still floating in the air. Begrudgingly, she takes it and slowly sinks back to the ground. The bag… Read morePlay a Day: Back to the Grind
Ebb and Flow
Still getting back in touch with my sexuality at the moment. To catch everyone up to speed, I’ve been on birth control since 2010 to control pre-menstrual symptoms. I always had rough periods, even as a teenager. The kind which… Read moreEbb and Flow
Depression and Inertia
Once I’m feeling overwhelmed, it starts to feel like nothing will ever change and my options for making a difference in my own life are limited. All I can think of are the reasons I can’t do things or why even if I tried it wouldn’t matter because of course I’m just a failure and incompetent at life.
In other words, my brain lies to me.
Stress also makes me feel tired and fatigued, which makes me able to do less because I lack the mental and/or physical energy.
Which only feeds the cycle more.
Because my brain can then say, “See? You can’t even do your laundry or keep up with the dishes or clean the cat box. How will you ever manage X, Y, or Z?”
Then, the stress and guilt from not being able to do even the simplest adult tasks piles onto my other stress and makes me feel even more that I ought to just stay in bed with the covers pulled over my head forever.
Money Troubles Swing Both Ways
Someone told me that when poor people actually manage to have money, they don’t know what to do with it and it becomes a source of stress. That’s kind of how I feel right now.
I have a couple hundred dollars in my bank account somehow, and I will get another couple hundred before the end of the month.
About half of that I will need to help cover rent and bills at the first of the month, but I’m so used to not having any money, or having just enough to buy gas and groceries that it’s still weird.
Things I Want
I feel like the first step toward achieving a goal is to state it in some concrete way. I’m still waiting for my Passion Planner in the mail, so I might as well do it here for now. Here are… Read moreThings I Want
Surviving Abuse
I have a lot of complicated emotions surrounding the coverage of Leelah Alcorn’s suicide in the media. I’m not transgender, but I am queer and the child of conservative Christian parents who did not deal well with my coming out…. Read moreSurviving Abuse