A lot of things are changing right now, and hopefully for the better. Old roommate moved out, and new roommate moved in. Still a few loose ends to sort out over the next several days, but I am much more compatible with the new roommate overall, so feeling good about that. I have a small […]
Trying to Make Sense of It All
I’m happy with some parts of my life right now, and I try to be grateful for what’s good in my life. But there are other areas where I’m very dissatisfied. I’m not trying to throw myself a pity party. I just keep feeling like maybe if I write out what I don’t like and […]
F*ck Capitalism
Another chapter in the “Being Poor Sucks” anthology. Using mint.com, I figured out that part of my problem is that I only accounted for monthly expenses in my budget. Less frequent expenses, like haircuts, oil changes, and renewing my car registration, mean I would need to make at least another $100 a month. Which explains […]
My Black Dog
I’ve watched this video before, where the narrator compares his depression to a black dog who follows him around. Mine feels more like an estranged relative who decides to drop by for a visit even when they know they’re unwelcome. I thought I was just stressed and overworked. But yesterday I had a complete meltdown when I […]
Quarter-Century Crisis
Lately I’ve been struggling with time management. With the bookstore gearing up for conferences and events this fall, I’m having to figure out if I can cut back hours on my other main part-time job. My attention is too divided. It turns out I can’t work three jobs and really be good at any of […]
Working Too Hard
I realized yesterday that watching a movie after work was the only real time I’ve had to myself in over a week. Been picking up extra odd jobs and such to make up for one boss being out of town 2 weeks this month and other job being slow. Between that and trying to keep […]
Well, This is Awkward
There was this moment of communication with my boss today that I don’t know how to process. There’s this breast cancer awareness bicycle ride in September. She created a team for the bookstore, and since I’m learning to ride, I joined the team and pledged the least amount of miles. Everyone who signs up also […]
Going With the Flow
Something I’ve been thinking about for a few days now. Just got back from Burning Flipside, a much-needed artistic vacation. My lover and I had printed out the list of events from the website before leaving, and while we consulted it several times to see what interesting things might be going on, we mostly just wandered […]
Finding the Way Back to Me
There’s something I’ve been thinking a lot about the past few weeks. I posted a lot while I was still in my old job about how difficult and stressful and demoralizing it was working in a call center. I spent so long trying to get out of there that I didn’t think about how long […]
The First Day of the Rest of my Life
Anyone who’s been following this blog knows how miserable I’ve been working in a call center. Friday was my last day, and today I started my new job in a feminist bookstore I can walk to from my house. I feel like a weight’s been lifted off my shoulders. I can feel the tension melting […]