I know I haven’t written for a while. But a lot of things have converged lately that I want to try to make sense of. Jose Esteban Munoz died earlier this week. I drew heavily from his book Cruising Utopia for my thesis. While academic research is often framed as a conversation, I always entertained […]
thinky thoughts…
…. to be elaborated on later… Traffic was “whew!” today… and yesterday, too, for that matter. Is everyone taking a page from my book and avoiding the highway? I had a thought today as someone cut in front of me and I decided not to honk at them because I could see how they thought […]
“Real” world blues
So I’m moving to Austin when my lease is up in July, hard details pending. I had a job interview in Austin this past Monday (well, 2, but I am only talking about 1 here), and I didn’t get the job. I was really excited about the potential of working for these people, and hence, […]
Thoughts in the Bath
Tonight the sunset was beautiful here. And I felt grateful to see it. It is a small blessing in my life that it is no longer pitch black when I get off work… nothing is worse than feeling it’s the middle of the night before you’ve even had dinner. Whenever I most seriously entertain the […]
What are the odds?
I’m a pretty introspective person. That’s why I have a blog, for instance. I know that creating narratives is an important facet of human experience, and that how we make sense of our experiences and lives matters. I was re-reading this book I picked up over the summer, Hardcore Zen. And I was thinking that maybe […]
Contientious Objecter
I’ve hardly gotten anything productive done this weekend. Thinking about going to work tomorrow puts my stomach in knots. I might be able to do substitute teaching, but it doesn’t pay well and the work isn’t guaranteed. So if they hire me I still need to find something else to do part-time. And that’s proving […]
Change is Inevitable
Something I’ve been musing over lately is how different my life is now than what it was while I was in graduate school. I hardly see any of the friends I made during my graduate studies and fieldwork due to the time constraints of my current job and how disconnected I am now from the […]
New Year; Old Problems
It’s January. Can I just say, “Holy Hell, how did this happen?!?” Wasn’t it just November yesterday? I really thought I would have found a new job by January. That was kind of the plan in my head even if I hadn’t set it in stone. And while I looked and applied some yesterday, there […]
A World of Abundance
There are some insights I’ve been wanting to hash out, but I’ve been too sick and brain fuzzy. I woke up this morning with laryngitis and had to call in, so I’ve had the day to rest and sleep. Feeling a bit better, but now whatever I’ve got’s moved from my sinuses to my chest. […]
Paying the Rent
So I’ve really been struggling with my job. I work 10:00-6:30pm with a half-hour commute and leaving early enough to get coffee and get settled in the AM which means 8 hours of getting paid to work really equals 10 hours of my day. I chose that shift so I could theoretically get 8 hours […]