I’ve been reading Pema Chodron’s book When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times. I’m both glad to be reading it and simultaneously quite uncomfortable and not sure I am able to understand and internalise everything she is saying. I’ve been going through a lot of big changes in the past year. Starting a […]
Loss and Gain
I’ve been through a lot of changes in the past year. Health issues. Job loss. Job gain. New career trajectory. Back in school. Loss of home. Moving to a new home. Trying to do things I’ve never done before that I’m not really sure how to do. And most recently, the loss of one of […]
Update
It’s recently come to my attention that someone who is emotionally abusive towards me is using the posts I make on my website to gain information about my life. I am still dedicated to the honesty and authenticity I’ve been trying to build here. Based on this new information, however, I need to take some […]
What’s a Crisis?
Possibly one of the most frustrating things about mental illness is never being able to trust your perceptions and reactions to stimulus. Never knowing if a reaction is due to your mental illness or an appropriate response to stress. There will always be this little voice asking whether or not someone “normal” would be reacting […]
Your Stories Matter
This was originally performed at Greetings, from Queer Mountain on February 24, 2016 What I know is that the stories we tell matter. The stories we tell ourselves, the stories we tell each other, and the stories our culture tells us. But what I mean by that might not make sense to you if you […]
How to Move Forward
I attended the OUTsider Festival again this year in Austin, and again they totally hit it out of the park. Five days of fabulous queer art and community here in Austin. So much discussion about the relationships between sexuality in art, queer space and place, diversity and representation in art, art and activism. I’m still […]
Change as Opportunity
Since I’m in the situation I’m in, I’m trying to find ways to see it as an opportunity for growth rather than a source of stress. I hadn’t realized the extent to which I had set up my life to be convenient and accommodate my depression and anxiety triggers until things shifted. Since I’m self-employed, […]
Allergies, Patience, and Friendship with Yourself
I feel like I haven’t gotten anything done this month. After a stressful upheaval the first week in January, I came down with what I think was a terrible case of Cedar Fever. I haven’t had allergies this bad since the fall I moved to Texas. I spent most of a week fatigued and stuffed […]
Hello, 2016!
Wow, what a week! I have no idea where to even begin. Still not sure how open to be about the details on a public forum. Needless to say, a stressful, unfair, and emotionally/psychologically taxing situation exploded just after the New Year, necessitating a lot of rapid and even more stressful changes that should have […]
New Year, New Uncertainty
As 2015 draws to a close, I’m confronted with the fact that I have no idea what the next four months of my life are going to look like. I am looking for internship opportunities in town, and if I can get paid to do drama therapy, the other work I’m doing right now might […]